It's been awhile.
I haven't really felt inspired to write anything, and a lot has been going on. I also enjoy spending time in the pool during Riley's nap rather than inside. But right now the fan is feeling pretty good.
We went to Wisconsin to visit my family. It was an amazing time. Everything about it was so meant to be.
In wisconsin it was awesome at night my grandma, dad, Eric and I got to talk about heaven and ghosts and just really discuss God. I love it. I love seeing my husband's love for Jesus grow more and more. The visit was so heartwarming to be with my Grandma and my best friend and her family.
I am so blessed with that friendship. We have been friends since 1st grade! We are now 27!!! It feels so amazing just being at her house hanging out with her and her kids! It also is so nice because our husbands get along great!!
It was so awesome to see my cousins and meet their little families. It was so awesome to see God working in all of us.
It was great to go by my childhood house. The house I dreamt about for years after we moved from it. So many memories. We freaked ourselves out because the owners of it now asked my mom if we ever experienced any paranormal activity...
So the one night it was around midnight and Dad, Eric and I were idiling in the car across the street from it. We decided the owners were not home because for the last few days the same lights were on. Dad and I actually went up on the porch and window peaked. It was a crazy wave of emotions. EVerything except the living room still looked the same. And that dining room always creeped me out and then hearing about ghosts I almost couldn't peak it.
Then we drove around the other side looked at the back yard. Then went back in the driveway just looking at it.
Well then the neighbor pulled in( its a shared driveway too!) So we pulled out and then stopped and waited to see who got outta the car. We HAD to know if it was our old nightmare of a couple neighbors. It wasn't.
It was a young guy and all three of us are staring at him and he starts putting his hands up like WHAT WHAT? Im like DAD DRIVE AWAY< GO!!
So we get back to grandmas house. And my cousin is spening the night too. Well she says a black car ( same one as the neighbor) pulled in the driveway. I think oh no. Then she says a man is getting out.
My heart is racing. THAT MAN FOLLOWED US! Oh boy dad is gonna get it.
Sure enough, Knock, Knock on the door.
We all looked at eachother with HUGE EYES, phew it was just my grandmas neighbor.
Now why was he coming over after midnight? ha he wanted to talk to my dad.. hang out!
Dad tells him we are going to bed.
Then the craziness begins...
( Heres a
link to our old house. They painted it purple.. Horrible my parents re did that whole house all victorian including beautiful paint job..)
We start scaring the shit outta each other.. including my grandma.
Eric got Dad so good. First I hid on the side of his bed. He was staying in what used to be my great grandmas room. He said he was already creeped out in there. So I jumped up and scared him!
Then we took turns getting one another.
Eric hid in the closet in Dads room. I never heard my dad scream like that!! He got so scared he fell back onto the bed.
I haven't heard Eric laugh that hard in awhile.
We couldnt stop. My grandma went outside with a flash light and was scaring us through the windows.
When she came in she cracked me up so much, saying I think I stepped in dog shit!! of course she went out with no shoes!
I put a sheet over myself and just was randomly standing in the kitchen. Got my cousin and Dad pretty good.
We just had fun.
We made my grandma a garden and eric moved a pipe for her. So we created a nice little outdoor area next to her patio and swing.
We were out there hanging out and wanted pizza at 10pm. I guess its not like New York, all the pizza places were closed.
So where did we order from? Buffalo Wild Wings!
We ate outside with wings at 11pm. Then just as we were about to finish it started thundering!
We just had such an awesome time enjoying each others company.
Even though I hadn't seen my family in forever our conversations flowed and were easy. My husband met most of my family for the first time, and he was talking the whole time.
I just was so moved by the love from family.
It is so special to see my dad and husband together. They actually seem like great friends instead of father son.
They laugh and laugh together. I got to hang out with my best friend while they went to the bar to play pool.
Of course once we got home I started to have those negative thoughts creep up.
The pity party was int he closet waiting to jump out and start celebrating how much it sucks that I am so far away from my family. The part of feeling alone and how they are missing out on Rileys every day activities.
But then I remembered GOD!
He has a plan. He knows our hearts desires. And... I just had an amazing week with everyone. That right there is reason to celebrate. I know it makes all our visits more special than if we saw each other every day. I was able to thank him for the relationship I have with my family and the closeness we share. I realized I have a lot more to be thankful for then the few I wish it were like this... My thankfulness squashed down the devils attempt to ruin my vacation.
Sure my heart breaks when I just want to say to my parents and brothers, hey come meet us at the splash park. But I know Gods love brings hope! And this world is temporary.
One day we will be together in perfect harmony. And if its Gods plan to have us wait until that day. Im ok with that. Because while I'm here on earth as long as Im trusting in him, he gives me everything I need at the perfect time.
" Those who bring trouble on their families inherit only the wind. The fool will be a servant to the wise." Proverbs 11: 29.
What that verse is saying is this- " One of the greatest resources God gives us is the family. Families provide acceptance, encouragement, guidance, and counsel. Bringing trouble on your family- whether through anger or through an exaggerated desire for independence- is foolish because you cut yourself off from all they provide. In your family strive for healing, communication, and understanding."