About 8 weeks ago, I decided to start applying for any job in my field and started in the sales avenue. MY brain was so scattered I was not sure what the hell I wanted to do for a career. I had to keep searching every day to get this voice in my head to stop with the whole "You got a degree in Journalism and you are working at Target?'
So I applied to about 5 different places. But there was only one that I was really hoping to get, which was working at YNN as a news assistant. Basically an entry level position into my FIELD! YAY!! I was excited that there was even a position available. The other four I applied for was sales positions and I got a few call backs from them but I just was really not feeling the sales side of life.
So.... I waited and got really sad because three weeks after i turned in my application to YNN I heard nothing. I kept asking myself, "I cant even get an entry level position in my field?" It totally ate me up.
Than I get an e-mail from someone with YNN. Asking if I am still interested in the position and when I am available to do a phone interview.
I jumped up so high all my energy excitement was back, I WAS GOOD ENOUGH!! That right there was the confidence booster I needed. I thanked God right away! So i replied back with my availability any time after 4 Wed are my day off.
He responded back with an e-mail of can you come to the office at noon?
WOW i just went from a phone interview to an actual interview in a day! God is really boosting my ego now!
Then it all drops and I cant figure out the reason. I respond back to his e-mail yes. HE rights back later in the evening that day
Sorry you got back to me after the 12 meeting and due to breaking news I wont be available the rest of the week. Please keep in touch for the next available position.
I couldnt believe it. I just got back from prepping with the editor at The Batavian and its all over. Just like that. I didn't understand.
So I let the man know this. I told him I thought he meant wed at noon since that is the only time I am available during the day... and now there is no longer a position? This all happened tues night. So i felt at least i can rest easy tonight knowing my interview got canceled.
Wed morning the day I thought i would have my interview i decided to prep with the questions anyways.. why not. Then at 11:30 I get a phone call from ynn. I crapped my pants. I thought I am not ready oh no. So i ignored it hoping they would leave a voicemail. They didn't About ten mins later they call again...Oh lord i think i have to answer now. SO I do and the man responds with I dont know where we last left off in our emails but can you come to the office today?
Oh boy.
SO we hang up I rush to get ready my nerves are ALL over the place. I get ready and on my way to buffalo. I have a 40 min drive to get there so figure I can practice on the way. I prayed for peace that i would be calm during the interview and all of a sudden in the midst of my hands shaking they stopped. And i felt totally calm.
The interview went great! My hands werent shaky I met with a c0uple guys got to see the place and in the beginning of the interview i was on cloud nine "I could be doing this I could be here!" Its all i kept thinking.
Then we talked about the pay which is less than what i make now but I figured so that didn't bother me I was still all excited... Then we talked about the hours....then my heart sank. 2:30-11pm and NO weekends off. Ugh Right now i get every other weekend off.
Then I went to look at the studio and I felt huh.
Then when I felt like they were about to offer to me and asked what i thought, I couldnt show my excitement because i didnt have much. I told them the hours were something i would really have to think about.
After the interview (it was an hour and half) I sat in my car. I just felt like huh. I went in thinking this was my dream job and left thinking about how much I love where I am right now. I live so close to work less than a minute. I enjoy my job the pay is decent. I like my hours. and i get to be home with my husband the one thing i need to have everyday.
I realized that I am not old but not that young and my priorities are NOTHING they were like when I started college. I know now that family is so important to me. I want to be a mom and I want to be there for my kids and husband. I really can't start this kinda career right now not anymore. I realize I want to be home with my kids have that farm house and be able to write some books.
Then at my current job a promotional opportunity comes up. God's timing is amazing. God is amazing. That little interview changed everything for me and made me realize how happy i really am right now. I know it's ok that I got my degree in journalism and may not use it in that field. I am ok with that. And it feels great!!
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