Sometimes, just sometimes, when I think about where I am in my life, it feels surreal. So many things to be thankful for.
But when you truly stop to just reflect on things you have accomplished or witnessed lately, how does it make you feel?
Lately, I have been letting the media world of age, and looks get to me. Diminishing my inner beauty because of the world's demands of the outer beauty. Letting the world tell me, I am old. If I don't start a career now, it could be too late.
Wrong signals, and I know they all are not true. It just seems crazy to think in just a few months the routine of the last four years of my life, will change drastically. No more managing work, school, and an internship, along with socializing.
No more, waking up in the middle of the night, thinking oh crap, thats due tomorrow.
No more driving to Brockport, enjoying the thirty minutes of loud music and singing where NO ONE can hear you.
No more campus events,
No more dorm life
No more doodling in my notebook in class.
No more thinking, is this done yet?
No more, no more.
Life is about to change again, love. And that's ok.
I am used to change, but all the pressure is on, to be everything I day-dreamed about in class.
Or, I can just enjoy what happens, and not put the pressure on myself. Just remembering that God always knows what he is doing, there is a reason I am here, doing what I do, right now, and that is powerful!
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